January 2009
1 post
been awhile
I’ve started dreaming again. About death & angels & babies. I didn’t know for sure if I believed in angels. But there are always orbs in my pictures. And someone once gave me an entire envelope of pictures where the orbs were only on me. and she said to me…you’ve got an angel, amber & I think it’s probably your Dad. And I say he deserved better than that....
October 2008
2 posts
I can feel the cold in my bones again
It’s the last week of October. And in a few short weeks it will be the 16th of November. And until I get past that day, November always feels so heavy. I miss my Dad. More than anyone could ever imagine. There is no comforting me but I just wish someone would try anyway. Anyone. My Dad was the most amazing person you could ever meet. He could make anything funny. He could make anyone smile....
shitty week
I’m having the shittiest week ever!! I feel totally worthless the last few days. Can’t remember shit therefore I am fucking up everything I do at work. I’m trying to overcome my “new girl” status & it’s so hard to do when I keep screwing up. I think I ask the wrong questions & say “I don’t know” too much. But then when I try to do...
September 2008
11 posts
“Poetry should please by a fine excess and not by singularity. It should strike...”
– John Keats
Blake Shelton
Amber on Authortree →
My First Book- In Need of a Pause →
Amber on Myspace →
Forgiveness
What a crazy ass week!! Some girl locked herself in our bathroom today at work. And she couldn’t figure out how to unlock it to get out. So she started to freak the fuck out & scream for her boyfriend. I almost fell out of my chair laughing. But I really needed that laugh after 40 some crazy hours doing paperwork & answering the phone & dealing w/ old people who can’t hear...
Work.
I’ve been at this job now for a little less than a year. And I’ve never doubted myself this much my entire life. I guess it’s good that I finally have something that challenges me because otherwise I’d be bored out of my mind & we all know where that leads. (more running, leaving, losing) But things are good. I’ve never been so in love in my life. And that is...
“He who does not weep, does not see.”
